Shadows... We all have them, do battle with them, resist them and feel uncomfortable, sad and ashamed when they wreck havoc with our lives.
I make every effort to walk in the light, as I am sure many people do. As I move though, I see my bits and pieces of shadow that I know I hide. I hide them from myself and from others. Guilt and shame are their names, as well as anger, resentment and unspoken hurts.
Being a human being, I can't help but find these bits and pieces of my shadow a bit embarrassing...I make every effort to walk in light - so what is up with all the shadow that seems to crowd around the edges?
If you make every effort to walk in the light, you will see the shadows that you have created - and that others have created and sent to you. It's just going to happen. We all have shadow sides. The parts that we don't show to others, or even to ourselves very often.
But I am going to say this because I feel it needs to be said...
I make every effort to walk in light - every day - with mindful awareness. Because of this, I see those shadows that trail out from my energy. The ones I have created and the ones that others have sent to me. They are scary to look at or feel, as they gather around the energetic field of my being. And I can feel them, as a coldness or a sense of guilt and shame that washes over me and makes me nauseous or sweaty.
I'm sure you will see and feel those shadows hovering, but, and I say this with great love, you don't have to be afraid of your shadow side.
By taking the time to meditate and sit with your soul self, you can meet your shadow side and welcome it. Get to know it and recognize the message it has for you. This is the way to keep it from acting out. Don't smother it in gardenias and jasmine or deck it in Christmas lights. Bring it into your light as a part of you and as a part of your existence as a human.
This is not to say that you want to broadcast the shadow to the world. Your shadow side is a private being. It is a shadow after all. Just being aware of and acknowledging it as it stands at the edge of your soul shine.
By embracing it and bringing it close to your heart, you can heal it. This shadow is usually a being that has been brought into being by hurt, anger, fear, guilt or shame. It's vulnerable, but it has taken that vulnerability and turned it into something that is not pretty to you. It looks for revenge for drama and most of all it looks for acceptance, love and healing from you.
It's a process, not an overnight event, but I am always surprised when I commit to gathering my bits and pieces and hold them all close.